• Ego,  Intelligence,  Practice,  spirituality

    Lessons From A Leaf

    It is our last camp-out of the year.  Warm, sunny days mark the end of September and the sun refracts in the vibrant colors of Fall making the day even more beautiful, surreal even.  Every once in a while a breeze moves through and we are showered by falling leaves from the giant birch trees that surround us.  They make a peaceful descent toward their eventual disintegration and I feel both amused and inspired by that.   As I watch them fall I am reminded of the times in my life been asked to let go.  Those times when some aspect of myself or my life has lived its season and…

  • Yoga in the Everyday

    Adjusting Your Sails

    For the longest time I have been searching for the right way to parent.  In regard to any issue  – whether that’s nutrition, potty training or cultivating pro-social behaviors.  I often feel anxious about finding the “right” course of action and being consistent with it.  I’m learning that this is a bit of a farce.  To assume that such clarity is possible is to try to place the enormous, dynamic movement of life into a box the size of my hand.  Every day I am different, my daughter is different, the influences of the world and universe around us are changing.  The question is not “can I find the ‘key’…

  • Ego,  Intelligence,  spirituality,  Yoga in the Everyday

    The Forces of A Greater Will

    An osteopath friend told me a few months ago that my daughter tends to hinge at her hips and neck when she moves rather than moving her spine.  This comes as not surprise given that I have a rigid spine compared to the hyper mobile joints at my hips and shoulders.  Wanting to create balance in her body, I’ve been campaigning somewhat to get her to move from her spine more – “Look Rowan!  Can you roll like a ball?  Can you wiggle side to side like mama?”  I’ve seen some change in her ability to round her back more fully into flexion, but generally it’s not been significant. As…

  • Ego,  Inner Work,  Practice

    Ego’s Got a New Job

    Can you let go?  Can you take a leap of faith and become voluntarily passive in front of the life that lives you right now?  Becoming voluntarily passive is a notion that comes from Gurdjieff and has greatly illuminated the role that my ego plays in daily suffering.  Here’s how I understand the notion in a nutshell:  Every day I am impacted by life.  I (little I/ego) instantly judge those impacts as being something pleasant or unpleasant.  Based on these judgements I react to the impacts in all sorts of neurotic ways to keep myself from experiencing the unpleasantness or to grasp the pleasantness.  Essentially, I never actually feel the resonance of life’s impacts in my…

  • Practice,  spirituality

    Be Affected By Your Breath

    I like to think that some of the things that I’ve discovered in my yoga journey may resonate or be helpful to others.  The following is an inquiry into the breath that can be engaged in your practice as a way to connect to this vital force and to approach your practice from a different perspective.  Much of it can be experimented with even if you don’t do yoga – either way, let me know if it helps, hinders or inspires! Become Aware – the breath is affected by and affects every layer of our being.  When we labor in physical activity it changes accordingly, when we are sad, mad, glad or afraid there is…

  • Inner Work

    The Freedom of Being Half-Assed.

    In two weeks I will be starting my Master's degree in Counselling Psychology.  For years I have considered many avenues for graduate study, more often than not I have been tyrannized by the thought of making the wrong decision.   I've stewed about what the outcome might be – would I be employable?  Would I ultimately enjoy the work?  If I open this door what about all the others that would shut?  Most of all, I've worried about the time and energy it would require from me.  But, despite the confusion and fear I am continually haunted by academics and have an undeniably, seemingly DNA based penchant for learning.  So, this…