• Ego,  Inner Work,  Inspiration

    Grateful – The Natural State of an Open Heart.

    One of my Enneagram teachers once said that the natural state of the heart is that of gratitude.   An open heart receives the impacts of life, moment by moment, like the ocean receives raindrops.  No rejection and no coveting of any single drop – just the absorption of the part into the whole. Like this, our heart has the capacity to open to suffering and joy with equal tenderness.  In fact, this is what it calls us to.  The secret of the heart is that it wants to feel everything.  It wants to be fully alive and learn all that it can from the trials and celebrations of life.  Our…

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  • Inner Work,  Intelligence

    A Full Range of Emotion

    I’m no stoic.  Despite all my efforts, I have not been able to quell the torrents of my  feeling heart.  In fact in this moment I feel: –   Content that I can relax in a sunwarmed chair in my favourite coffee shop. –   Relief for having time to write my blog. –   Anxiety because I really should be doing something other than writing my blog. – Sad that my gramma is in hospital –   Happy that after a 14 month marathon I have finished my Master’s coursework Moment by moment I feel these emotions whirling and storming through me, each with different intensities and flavours.  Depending on who you ask this may be considered…

  • Consciousness,  Inner Work,  Non-duality,  spirituality

    Manomaya Kosha – The Feeling and Emotional Body

    I’ve been actively avoiding this post all week. I have often guarded my feelings and emotions and so publicly writing about it fills me with fear.  I’m afraid to be honest, I’m afraid that I won’t be honest.  So I start there.  In the fear.  I move through the first two sheaths with ease, I am comfortable here, in sensation and energy.  And then I bump up against a wall of butterflies- this is often how I feel fear or anxiety – as mass of butterflies that jitter in my torso.  And the butterflies go nowhere.  They just flit about in chaotic non-patterns, bunging up any sense of flow within me.I bring more awareness to this moving, immovable mass.  As I do this the butterflies seem…

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